Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas Morning.

we have a house full. 
beds, couches & chairs are occupied with pillows, blankies & slumbering bods. 






what a perfect way to begin 2010 Christmas ... snuggled in deep. 





Merry Christmas!

Monday, December 20, 2010

My (kind of) Grown-Up Christmas List.

if i had infinite amounts of money or a bit more than i do now, or family members/close friends with such, these are a few items that i would definitely be demanding to have for Christmas this year:


#1
these cute boots
isle lace up rain boots $184



#2
a private STL screening of this documentary:





#3
a three part trip.

FIRST STOP:
Southern Italy
palermo ... sicily ... 



SECOND STOP:
Greece
my dream



THIRD & FINAL STOP:
Nepal
for some intake of this beauty

and some of this kind

and a whole lotta' this kind





#4
totally in love with this:
not harmful to anything or anyone ... even more perfect!
kimchi blue lady bird faux fur coat $148 @ urban outfitters





#5
an ipad.
$500-$700
want it!




#6 
nikon 50mm lens


$140-$230








#7
a neapolitan mastiff 
SO. MUCH. MONEY.
aren't they incredible though? immaculate. beautiful ... some day. 













there is more ... but i think this will suffice ...
my birthday is in June, we'll revisit dreamy, rich-people gifts then.







Thursday, December 9, 2010

To Do; Doo Doo

on today's list:

1. paint my nails

2. finish field assignment journals

3. finish SOCW 302 study guide

4. go to walmart :(
- crochet hook
        - some art materials
    - iTunes gift card

5. dread TLC

6. make christmas cards for my 2 fav professors

7. go to the bank
 - deposit check
                      - get out cash for tomorrow

8. make LOTS of phone calls

9. pay phone bill

10. check grades online

11. yoga

12. put on make-up

13. finish painting doll-house for Evie's birthday

14. look-up movies for tomorrow night ... 
my brother is going to be 20!

15. hangout with my mama

16. read my Bible

17. create signs for donation boxes at work

18. go to work (on my day off, ew) and put boxes up

19. meet & plan church christmas dinner entertainment

20. be kind

21. relax

22. pet my dog

23. eat well

24. feel accomplished

25. thank God for all of the good, undeserved, greatly cherished blessings in my life ... including, but not limited to, this dude:


Monday, December 6, 2010

losing friends is a strange thing to have to do.
especially when you don't open yourself up to a huge array of people. when one of them that you did invest in, talk with, live life with, laugh and cry in front of, learn to love ... when they take off, there floods a whole chorus of emotions that one must sift through and organize and figure out.

over the last year or so i have been going through the process of losing a friend. 
working through it on my own really, he ducked out of the whole "let's call this thing off" part. just disappeared. after five years of long distant frienship, a couple roadtrips to visit each other and a lifetime of memories (at least for me) of how we met ... 

POOF.  P O W .  GONE. 
right out of my life. 

we haven't spoken in at least a year, and i still am not sure how to feel or what to think about it all. i am a little mad still. i think he's a jerk ... a lot of the time.  but i thought that even when we were friends ... that's kind of just part of him. i think he's arrogant and that he doesn't respond well when his ego gets knocked around a little. i think that he's overly competitive unlike me ... ;) 
and likes things to happen only on his terms. 

but you know what else ... 
i think he is kind. i think he's one of the most thoughtful and protective people i have ever met. i think he's intelligent and a good impeccable thinker and interested in things that so many people in today's world aren't. i think he tries to cover up his goodness too much. i think he is fun and hilarious. i think he dreams huge. i think he has guts and a certain power within him that is uncommon in Godly men these days. i think i have never had to lose somebody that i've loved ...
that he made himself the first. 

he was my friend ... for real. he was really my friend. i cared about him, and wondered how his days were, and kept pictures of him on my walls, and thought of him fondly. it's so weird ... i don't really understand how people can just do away with relationship. how does that work? it just seems mean. bitter. cold. foolish. 
but he's not mean. i don't think he was trying to be mean. that's not really his way. it had to have been something else. don't ask me what, because i cannot answer ... but, over and over again, i can't let my final conclusion be that it's just because he's mean. he's not. he's good. 



anyway ... just something that i was thinking about today 
& i wanted it out from inside of me. 
that's all.